Tuesday 28 October 2008

Random ramblings

Writing a blog seems very weird. I doubt I shall remember to write in this very often but oh well.
Reading other people's blogs is very stressful...I want to know exactly what they mean but I can't :(

Also I don't understand why I get stressed by such stupid things...e.g. making last minute plans. If anything changes without me expecting it I get generally stressed. I can't deal with silly things it is really very silly.

I love sparkly shoes :)

I also properly realised how scary the thought of university is (while watching high school musical 3, haha). We have to leave everyone and go on our own : everything will be so different. and i have no offers, what if i get no offers? I just have such paranoid thoughts.

Anyways, had a nice day with my Mum today :) also realised how I am so lucky, like I have so many things and stuff I just don't appreciate it enough. I also have awesome friends who I don't appreciate enough.
Excited about hollydaying next year :) but also veryveryvery scared about exams and how on earth I am going to get the right results it is rather terrifying.

I wonder who will stay in contact with me, and who will disappear. And also wondering whether I will meet that special someone at uni. Wow that sounds so lame. And also, I can't imagine like, meeting a guy, and them actually being the right person and wanting to spend the rest of you, and them actually wanting to spend the rest of their life with me. I don't get how two people like...meet.

Hm, also been thinking for a while about this one time and what-ifs. What if i lost an actual opportunity?
I am being incessantly nudged.

In all truth, I really shouldn't be having such paranoid thoughts, as it's all in God's hands :)
And then when everything's all sorted, I shall wonder why I ever worried about it in the first place

I hate gossiping about people so much, it makes me feel so guilty, I really want to like stop completely. It's such a lame lame thing to do.

Well have to post this now due to high demand !